I don’t know what I’m more afraid of-
Seeing you again or never seeing you again.
My eyes kept looking for a silhouette of you
among 9 million silhouettes of others.
My heart wished for one day crossing yours;
but my mind prevented me from wanting more.
It hurts to see my brightest color vanished into the thin air.
I don’t remember how many times I suffocated in restless nightmares-
with images of you haunting, squeezing, and killing.
Still, I’m struggling.